Happy New Year to me, to you, to everyone.
I'm writing this post because I'm trying to avoid doing what I have to do, which is to upload greeting cards to the shop. It's not because I have anything that I feel I need to say.
And that's really why I haven't posted anything. Unlike the days just after Newtown, when I was filled with angst, with urgency, with anxiety, there seems to be little urgency about my life these days. I have a lot going on. I'm serving on a sub-committee for the city of Central Falls, one tasked with coming up with proposals for bringing the arts and tourism to the city. I'm still doing my gallery volunteer job. I may be helping with publicity for the Pawtucket Arts Collaborative. And I'm trying to do art, trying to do the shop.
It's a good busy--not a frantic busy. I'll admit to a couple of days where I felt particularly manic for one reason or another, but overall everything is cool.
As always, when the New Year rolls around thoughts turn to resolutions. I don't call them resolutions--they're goals. And they're more or less manageable.
For one thing, I want to do MORE art and BETTER art. And experiment more. One thing I realized is that people really, really like the work I do. I wish they'd buy more but they like it. So I feel as if I need to respect that enjoyment and make more of it. At the same time, I need to also push the boundaries and do other things. So that's on my goal list.
A second thing is to push myself to be out there more--to be more visible and not hide behind my self-erected walls. This is more difficult than it may seem. People don't realize that I am very shy. That I'm uncomfortable around 90% of people--heck, closer to 98% of people. Even people I know. So I'm going to try to be more social, more active. Which is why I emailed the guy in charge of publicity for the collaborative.
Third, I want to really push the art business. Market myself better. Work harder at it. And trying to distract myself from doing it is not a good thing. I need to create a work schedule as if I was working a 'real' job. Because this is a job.
And last but definitely not least--I want to be more in control of my symptoms. So that when I am in a particularly manic frame of mind I can control it better. I was able to do that last Friday--I want to continue that control.
There you have it. Four goals that are at least partially achievable.